“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.” ~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
I’m sorry… I am sorry you felt so bad that you thought taking your life would be the way to ease the debilitating pain you were going through.
I’m sorry, sorry you felt pressure to make us all laugh and inside you were fighting for your life. I am sorry that at some point in your life, you were not seen, heard nor validated, not for the « celebrity » that you were (everyone loves you), but for the spiritual human being living inside you. I know it hurts, I know.
I am sorry you were ill. Sorry those demons got the best of you, making you feel worthless or ashamed of your illness. Sorry you needed to self-medicate, I know, I self-medicate with food. I am truly sorry if you ever felt judged, criticized, or told « just get up and go you have all the money in the world » . You and I both know that fortune doesn’t change the raging waters of anxiety.
I am very sorry you are gone, and I hope you see now, how many of us really looked up to you and found laugher when we were depressed, sad and lonely. So thank you for making me laugh despite you crying inside.
“There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.”
― Laurell K. Hamilton, Mistral’s Kiss
Sorry you felt lonely in a crowd of a million, sorry that someone made you feel alone… and I apologize for those who still discriminate mental illness as being something we can just walk away from. Sorry you had to hide behind a mask, and pretend while you improvised the next line in one of your movies.
I am sorry Robin, for all of us who go through this debilitating disease and fight every single day, when others think it should be so easy. I am here, and your death hopefully will wake the world up to understanding just a bit more. Depression hurts, and people can die from it.
“I used to think the worst thing in life is to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel all alone.”
— Robin Williams
I am sorry for your family, and send them wishes of peace, love and comfort.
What can we do today, tomorrow and the next few years?
Lets do this!
Be there, be there for your family, your spouse, your best friend, and, if you cannot be there, well make sure your loved one has all the tools they need to make a difference in their lives. Send someone else, even if it is, yes, an ambulance.
Suicide is not cowardly it is the last cry for help.