“Her happiness floated like waves of ocean along the coast of her life. She found lyrics of her life in his arms but she never sung her song.”
Do you even wonder how a wave distinguishes itself from the body of water it is in? Yesterday, as I was sitting by the lake not far from my home, I was mesmerized by the waves coming up and splashing, waning and receding from the shore.
As I observed and contemplated the white crested small beasts, I realized that although waves have their own name, their own form, even at times, their own color. Waves, in fact, are not separate from yet part of the water they come from.
You cannot take a wave, and bring it home, a wave, driven by the wind, disappears (but does it) as soon as it hits the shore, yet, the water that created the wave is still there… Nothing is lost.
“Waves are the voices of tides. Tides are life,” murmured Niko. “They bring new food for shore creatures, and take ships out to sea. They are the ocean’s pulse, and our own heartbeat.”
― Tamora Pierce, Sandry’s Book
What I am trying to convey is…
As much as the waves can distinguish themselves from the water, they are the water.
Just like us. As much as we try to separate ourselves from life, we are in fact, life.
“Water waves are kinetic energy stored in the water and created mostly by the wind and gravity. When the waves reach the beach most of the energy is absorbed by the breaking of the waves.” (source ask.com)
As I treaded throughout my life, I often felt separate from others. My feelings of awkwardness around my extended family, and friends can often be seen on my face in old photos. In school, I never knew where I fit, so I tried to fit in everywhere. As the feelings of being apart from everyone and everything continued throughout my life, the love I had to myself dwindled into nothingness.
Then yesterday, I had a AHA moment!
My self-love is there, it never « dwindled into nothingness » like the wave, it returned to its source and become « part of »… Truthfully, it was never apart from water in the first place. Just like my love for me and for others, never left me. It just needs to be found… and embraced as part of me, and I as part of this vast Universe we are all merged in.
“If you’ve opened to…love, you’re helping people you don’t know and have never seen.” ~Rumi
And I am finding it!
Like the wave, my self-love waxes and wanes, and I find myself in a constant movement towards loving thyself. Like a cycle, the more I accept who I am, with my inadequacies, blemishes, strengths and powerful spirit, the more gushing love I start to feel.
Mastering takes time, and mastering takes practice. So today, like the wave up surging above its body, existing within the ocean, before, during and after its release onto the shore, I am going meditate on my place in this vast world, and begin to feel my roots expand and take form allowing myself to feel one with the Universe, one wave at a time.
Because, I am more than my body, more than my hair, more than the outward manifestation that is ME.
#40DaysOfSelfLove challenge day 10!
I love who I am, heart, body and soul. I am the wave, I am the ocean and I am the wind… I am me.. <3