Note from Kim: At the moment of publication of this post, Donna is having her surgery. So please send her positive vibes for an amazing recovery.
My Dearest One,
How I love you. I truly do.
I may not have been able to show it. I have not shown it too well though have I? I’ve put you through the ringer repeatedly. We’ve had our share of good times and bad times. We’ve won a few and lost a few.
And now, we are about to embark on another crazy journey. You would think that after the whole appendectomy/gall bladder issue; the broken ankle, the lumpomia removal, the diets, the hair colors, the hairstyles, the crazy yo-yo dieting, and we can’t forget the tattoo. That I would leave you be.
But I can’t. For our health, our future, I can’t. I can’t ignore the cholesterol that is quietly creeping up. I can no longer ignore the pre-hypertensive blood pressure that is lurking. I can no longer ignore the PCOS. I can no longer ignore the excess weight carried around. I can no longer ignore the family history of obesity, heart disease, diabetes, cancer, and high blood pressure. I just can’t.
I came across some pictures of daddy before he passed. I look at how heavy he was and think back to his problems. High blood pressure, obesity, COPD, diabetes, the trouble breathing, the open heart surgeries, the sternum removal, the sleep apnea, the gall bladder removal, the surgeries to fix his breathing passages, the teeth extractions. And I just want to sit and cry. Just remembering him on oxygen 24/7 and the medications he had to take broke my heart.
Then I look at other family members from that line and see the same problems. But I see cancer too. I see Mamaw with her breast cancer going through a mastectomy. I see her before she went in the nursing home on oxygen 24/7.
I see death. At 67. Mamaw passed when she was too young. Daddy passed when he was too young. Many other family members have those same problems. Granted they have been able to outlast that age but they are still in poor health.
And it breaks my heart. I see the line I came from and I have to put a stop to it. NOW. I have a bright future. I have a great job with a promising future. I have finally found a wonderful Mister who treats me with love, kindness, and respect. I have so much to live for, thus to do that, a drastic change must be made.
So once again, we are going under the knife. Gastric bypass is big. But our future is bigger. So today, I say goodbye to you, my old body. I hope you won’t be too angry with me in the following days. You have served me well the past 38 years. And now, it’s time for me to serve you well for the next 50+. Let me take care of you the way you have taken care of me.
Donna’s Twitter bio describes her as: “Southern and loud! She loves her Crimson Tide, Marvel Comics, Thai food, Martinis, old movies and books, LOTS of books”. Her journey towards empowerment & wellness began a couple of years ago when she stepped off a curb and broke her left ankle, both bones. She became aware, then and there: her body was telling her something had to change!
Since then, Donna has listened to her true spirit. When she’s not fabricating gorgeous quilts, spending time with good friends, or writing on her blog, Donna takes the time to make herself a hot cuppa tea and truly listen to her body and its needs.
You can follow Donna’s journey on her blog: Lipstick, Keats, and Tea ~ Because sometimes that’s all a girl needs and on Twitter.