“Soon silence will have passed into legend. Man has turned his back on silence. Day after day he invents machines and devices that increase noise and distract humanity from the essence of life, contemplation, meditation…tooting, howling, screeching, booming, crashing, whistling, grinding, and trilling bolster his ego. His anxiety subsides. His inhuman void spreads monstrously like a gray vegetation.”
― Jean Arp
Opening the windows this morning, I noticed everything outside was much louder than usual. The traffic, the truck deliveries across the street, the neighbour’s lawnmower, the kids screaming, dogs barking.. the first thing I did was SHUT THEM!
This is how my mind felt this morning too.. NOISY very noisy!
I am often full of ideas when I wake up in the morning, I think about everything from how I am going to fix the new rocking chair I pulled out of the garbage, to my best friend who just lost her job. I think about how she could finally start her own business, to how much of a blessing in disguise this is for her, although she may not see it that way now.
I think about my son, and if he is enjoying himself at camp, and my daughter who is going to spend yet another day at the amusement park. Will she have enough money to eat and take the bus home? Will she drink enough water? Is William taking care of his glasses, and what if something happens to them?
Then I think about the calls I have to make, and the commitments I have made to myself. Am I going to make is to the dentist? This fear is awful, but my tooth really hurts? What if the pain gets worse over the weekend? Will I have enough Tylenol?
“My personal hobbies are reading, listening to music, and silence.”
― Edith Sitwell
Then, as I take another sip of coffee, I stare out at my flowers and see how beautiful they are. I look at the blue sky, and think that one of the clouds looks like a flying elephant.. I wonder if it is going to rain later, or if it will be hot and sunny.
When I get this way, I try to shift my rambling mind by allowing the thoughts to come, BUT to replace the negative ones with more positive outcomes. For example, instead of worrying about my son at camp, I would change the thought pattern to : “I bet William is having a great time at camp!” or ‘I know there are good people to take care of things if something happens.”
It is not always easy.. I notice we are often bombarded with stuff around us that feed our minds…News, social media, loud music and yes lawn mowers. Nurturing my mind is what I need to do. There comes a time where I have to shut the window of my mind… find quiet in reading, meditation and drawing. Oh, I will leave the curtains open to allow sunlight to come in, yet I need to hear the sound of nature, so I put on a nature cd and pretend I am somewhere under a tree by the water sipping a Margarita with a straw!
Living with a rambling mind can go two ways… either it drives you crazy, or you drive the crazy out by shutting down for awhile.
Ahh….. silence.. can you hear it?
Oh.. someone is STILL mowing out there… one sec as I close the other window…
“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing
and rightdoing there is a field.
I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass
the world is too full to talk about.”
Where do you go to be silent? What gives you that sense of peace and quiet?