Hey! It’s OK to Feel Pretty – Day 20 – #40DaysofSelfLove

kim June 26-1

“For Attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
 For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
 For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
 For beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day.
 For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. 
 People, more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms.
 As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others.” 
― Sam Levenson

20 Days into the Self-Love challenge, and I really do feel a shift. It is not easy to put myself first every single day, but I managed so far, to honor myself at least once daily.

Self-Love is a practice which will follow me like sleeping nightly.

During the hardest times of my depression, a few things disappeared. First, showering, I know gross, but it was the LAST thing I wanted to do. Showering became a chore. I did it of course, but not as often as my body needed.

Also, brushing my hair. I would go days without brushing my hair. When I finally looked at myself in the mirror, I looked like an old woman, and decided to.. ya.. take the knots out.

I stopped plucking my eyebrows, wearing make up, and threw on whatever clothes were clean. I was not mindful of how I dressed.

It didn’t matter then, I was in the process of taking care of what is on the inside. The outside didn’t matter. I was ok with that. Actually, I am still cleaning out the old fridge of my soul in therapy, and have healed many old memories which were haunting me… Expressing, feeling and healing.

This past week, I have noticed a slight, yet very important change, I matter…

………………………and I am kinda cute. 

It is ok to want to smell good, to look good, to feel good. It is ok to feel sexy, pretty and desirable.. Oh.. did I use that WORD: Desirable? WOW

photo from:  http://treesandfaery.ning.com/

photo from: http://treesandfaery.ning.com/

Feeling Feminine!

Lately, and I totally blame this on the Challenge.. I have looked more and more in the mirror, and if you are spying on me.. Well, you may even catch me “strike a pose”. I have let my hair curl, and using product to make it tame. I have been “choosing” my clothes (with my limited amount) carefully, even MATCHING a top to a skirt!

It has been a long long time.

My daughter and I painted our nails last weekend, and after, I felt cared for.. almost like someone else did it, not me.. but I did!

Although I am not at the point of having a “total makeover”, I really feel the work I am doing loving myself from the inside out, is turning into a very loving way of caring for things; like how I look, and how feeling attractive… sends goosebumps up my spine.

….. a crap! Writing this post made me want to go buy new clothes!!

Soon, real soon. Maybe even put a bit of money aside for Saturday…. I am going shopping with a friend.

🙂

“I don’t mind being burdened with being glamorous and sexual. Beauty and femininity are ageless and can’t be contrived, and glamour, although the manufacturers won’t like this, cannot be manufactured. Not real glamour; it’s based on femininity.” 
― Marilyn Monroe

 

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7 Comments

  1. Kim

    June 27, 2013 at 8:29 pm

    🙂 Mohini!

  2. This just makes me so so very happy!! I have a great big smile on my face and that’s because of you!

  3. Tanya Lily-Reid

    June 27, 2013 at 12:49 pm

    I don’t like this….I LOVE THIS!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!! THIS!!!!!!!!!!

    Girl, I have 12 different lip glosses and one $65 bottle of perfume for this very reason!!!!

    I was the anti-girly, girl most of my life and then a bunch of really dark stuff happened. I had this idea to wear pink every single day–I HATED pink–until I taught myself to FEEL sexy, attractive, beautiful but most of all WORTHY…it took over a year!!!! Sometimes it was a hot pink Sharpie doodle “tattoo” by my right knee and sometimes others could see the pink but I did it until I owned it. Now, every time my world starts to go dark, I know to start clamoring for the light. The journey is often pink and glittery and it works!!!!

    • Kim

      June 27, 2013 at 8:29 pm

      🙂 Mohini!

    • Kim

      June 27, 2013 at 8:30 pm

      Tanya!

      I was just thinking I needed pink lip gloss! Seriously, I need to “ante up” on the makeup because I want to play.

      Really enjoying this challenge, I am seeing myself in a new light.

  4. Much, much, much, much love, thrills and excitement, Kim!

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