“How strange that the nature of life is change, yet the nature of human beings is to resist change. And how ironic that the difficult times we fear might ruin us are the very ones that can break us open and help us blossom into who we were meant to be.”
― Elizabeth Lesser, Broken Open: How Difficult Times Can Help Us Grow
There are many transitions happening for me today. The kids are home for the summer, Summer has begun, the moon just moved into my 2nd house…. and when there are transitions in my life, my anxiety rises and rises and RISES.
Going from one thing to another has never been easy for me. It may stem from abrupt separations in my past, or just because I am very sensitive to what is around me. My empathetic genes pic up everything and I am still working with my therapist to learn ways to protect myself from negative energies.
Not that all transitions are negative, however, I think I may seem to perceive them this way in my subconscious mind. If it were up to my self-protective self… nothing would change, everything would stay as is.. the status quo “rules” my insecure self.. Yet we all know this is impossible, and not at all self-loving.
When I was studying child development in University, one of the tricks I learned is to give children at least 5 to 10 minutes warning between activities. For example, if they are playing at the park, one would say “Ok kids, in 10 minutes we are going to get ready to leave”. Then 5 minutes later “Children! We are leaving the park in 5 minutes” This works well (I did this with my children) and avoids meltdowns when the time comes to leave the park (not that I never experienced meltdowns sometimes I did!). The point here, is that today, I give myself the same warnings. I prepare for the changes which are about to happen.
So, last week, we started counting down the last days of school, and I mentally prepared myself as much as I could for today. Yet, why am I still anxious? Well, at least I am not having a panic attack, which I would have had if I didn’t get ready for what was coming: Less time for myself, more kids around the house making messes, more food being eaten from the fridge, meant more nagging on my end.
Self-care + 1
Amping up the self-care is so important for me now. So I took out my markers and worked on my latest doodle. I doodled almost all day… Everytime my eyes and hands were busy and focused on the swirls I was swirling on my paper, I felt so much ease in my solar-plexus. Oh.. my. Bliss
- I also cleared my kitchen counter because I felt like it.
- I walked bare feet in the grass for grounding
- and I watched Practical Magic all cuddled up in my bed.
- The positive side:
I also told myself, despite the con’s to summer vacation, there are pros. I get to spend more time with my FrootLoops, which means more laughs, more hugs, and more conversations. We do not have the funds nor am I able yet to go do activities, but we make the best of what we have.
Ride them out..
So as I ride out the anxiety, I see that I have two happy teenagers that were so “done” with school and happy to be off with not alarm clock just like me.
Happy Summer Solstice Everyone..
Ride the waves… and ride them well 🙂